These lyrics.

Icky

2012-01-13T14:02:00.004+08:00

Undoubtedly, The Human Centipede is definitely gonna change my life. Whoever invented this flick is a sicko and mental pervert!!

I mean, what's there to like about connecting people from mouth to anal? It's just plain disgusting and makes you wanna puke.

Now I feel like puking. Lol.

-

Also, as a side note,

Maybe you can't judge someone without even knowing that person.

I've learnt this logic and will stop viewing people so negatively. After all, actions speak louder than words.

A Shadow

2012-01-11T12:44:00.002+08:00

Okay...so I'm back. You know what that means. Yeah, depressed.

I know I'm not the best, but to be beaten by someone way below me is unacceptable. Even if the judging criteria is not strict.

Crushed. Into pieces like seriously... I can't even put this feeling into words. It makes me want to weep not in sorrow but in disappointment.

Virtual vs reality?

2011-12-14T10:38:00.003+08:00

Been feeling rather separated from the world lately. I somehow dread my virtual life now and just wish to focus on real.

Haiz unhappy unhappy unhappy...

The most wonderful time of the year

2011-12-04T22:05:00.003+08:00

So... what to do on a lazy Sunday afternoon when the parents are out of town and the boy is busy? Catch a romantic movie of course!

This movie was quite different from what I expected (in a good way) and I thoroughly enjoyed it! Guess romantic comedies never die out on me, no wonder they're easily my favourite genre.

Some people are not worth knowing

2011-11-23T15:15:00.005+08:00

Seriously, it's getting me so annoyed that there's this irritating person in my life. Tried to ignore, tried to hide, but in the end, it's just not on my side! Because of him I don't even feel like talking to my friend anymore. It's just insane how both of them can just immerse into their own twosome and completely neglect their surroundings. If this continues, I shall not even pretend to be nice anymore, it's just not my style okay?

Hell, and the worse part is that nobody can see this. Are they blind or just trying to ignore and make me feel like the only idiot out there? Whatever it is whoever who is nice to him will just regret it in the end. Hope he will get his retribution soon. Urgh.

*On a side note.. at least I'll be meeting darl later, because of that it seems like I'm able to forget all these unhappiness :) Maybe not totally but at least for the moment. Thanks for making my world better...*

Bliss

2011-11-14T00:45:00.003+08:00

It feels like I've been talking a lot about life nowadays with my girls and it really feels as though I'm growing up so quickly. Started to do some stuff on my own too. I guess there's always a period of time where you'll feel like you're starting to understand yourself and everything around you more... To be honest, I really like this feeling - It's what I've always yearned for.

Because of all these changes I'm even more determined to live my life fully and happily, do my best and always be myself, especially for those special to me (you know who you are ^^).

Make A Wish

2011-11-11T20:06:00.001+08:00

11/11/11

Make a wish.

Do what you preach

2011-10-31T15:47:00.002+08:00

I have a religion that revolves around God and church.

Some people go to church everyday, but I don't see the point if the person still lives life like a freaking sinner. Seriously, why pretend to be so devoted to church when once you step out, you start cursing and swearing at everyone, even your parents?

This is not how God wants us to be, don't disgrace my religion if that's how you're going to behave!

An idea that will be buried

2011-10-30T01:07:00.003+08:00

I once had a crazy dream.
To be on top.
To be so damn famous.
To be a star.

But now, I'm slowly finding that this is not the dream I want. So what if I'm famous...it doesn't give me that much happiness at all. What I really want to be somebody to someone for who I am, inside.

Singing to me now has completely changed...to me it's now like an expression.
One day, I'll make my own songs, find my own self, express music the way I want to. For who? For those I love and those who love me. I don't want to make money nor gain recognition because I have made this song but I want, in turn, to get back the same emotions from those whom I've expressed these feelings to.

I've realised this important thing, and now I feel free. :)

The white dies but the black lives.

2011-10-29T14:08:00.004+08:00

Just finished watching the Black Swan and may I say...excuse me but, it's effing INCREDIBLE! From the start to the end I couldn't take my eyes off the movie.

The entire movie has a lot of depth and meaning that is difficult but not impossible to interpret. Totally a must watch as recommended by the book of 1001 movies you must watch before you die lol.

Rage

2011-10-26T16:02:00.002+08:00

Wth I'm damn irritated right now!!
Just because I was nice doesn't give you the right to invade my personal life right? I would gladly be your friend but I won't be your bloody babysitter.

Why are some people like that!?! It's so hard to find decent people nowadays ARGHHHH.

Insensitivity is a MAJOR issue

2011-10-20T15:43:00.004+08:00

When someone I love is upset, I get upset too.
But sometimes, there is nothing you can do 'cept try to lighten the mood and talk bout something else.
At least for me, I don't want someone to just say 'cheer up' thoughtlessly when they don't know what I'm upset over.
If the upset party wants to vent his/her frustration, he/she will do it soon enough, there's no point probing and trying to make the person happy cause the person won't!

If only everyone is the world would understand this...

-

Also, another thing is... doesn't it annoy you when your friend keeps talking bout someone you're not interested to talk bout SAY... the person she likes!? I'm not interested. Kthxbai.

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Not that I don't wanna hear bout BGR stuff but this situation is kinda different :| I can explain it, but I'm not going to explain here haha boohoo.

That sums up my post. Toodles for now.

Bored.

2011-10-10T23:29:00.002+08:00

I haven't been blogging.

Which is good, cause, if any of you realise, I usually blog about bad stuff and rarely anything good happening in my life.

I've been watching an anime called "Kimi Ni Todoke" lately and it kinda impacted me. Why? Not too much of the fancy romantic stuff and all that but rather the depth of the anime. I've never expected much from an anime besides being pervertic (which is true cause most of them are), but somehow this one is different.

How can I say it...the characters seem to connect to me? Like I understand how/why those people are doing those stuff, it's like they're in my world lol, for once. Every time I watch a certain movie/drama I would be thinking "Why is this person doing this?" And sometimes it's difficult to relate. BUT I can totally relate to all the characters in this anime which is like Wow O.o It's the first time in my life I actually get that feeling... Maybe I was a Japanese my previous life hahaha!

Enough of excuses

2011-09-02T23:51:00.002+08:00

I've just added a new word to my 'I hate these words' list.

Well, it's not a random list that I've just come up with, rather it's a list that was always kept as a secret. But today I shall reveal it.

These are the words I hate:
1) Busy
2) 'Wor'
3) Tired

1. Busy. This is the word I hate most. Seriously...there is no such as thing as using busy as an excuse. Eg. Shall we hang out next week? Ans: I'm busy. Just feel like slapping whoever says that... At least give a reason whatever it is like WHY YOU'RE BUSY, just don't say that complete and utterly disgusting 'B' word. Busy to me seems like "I don't want to." Period.

2. 'Wor' I don't think I have to explain this. In fact, this isn't even a word. I should change the title of this list wor...

3. Tired. Freshly baked from the oven. Tired is another "excuse" word and I hate it. It's the same as busy, I'd prefer 'lazy' or 'can't be bothered' rather than tired. Cause I'm TIRED of people saying tired, ok?

Things have been rough ever since I left secondary school...if only I had learnt to cherish those moments a little. Now it seems like this world is shit. There is nobody else to depend on (not talking bout family here) and nobody who actually cares about me as much as I care bout them. They only talk to me when they need help/entertainment. Nobody ever asks 'how are you' from the bottom of their hearts. At least, those people who are close to me now.

Life continues to suck.

Optimism shall die.

Because I worship English speaking people

2011-08-16T13:17:00.002+08:00

I have a problem. A somewhat huge problem.

I dislike Chinese speaking people.

No, not generally, but those who keep speaking absolute Chinese despite knowing I'm English speaking. Like, what the heck? I've considered that it might be bitchy of me to expect people to speak English since they're Chinese speaking but then again I've made concessions by trying to speak too. Another fact is that our country is promoting the English speaking culture, am I right or am I right?

No. I'm not going to convert to being Chinese speaking.

No. I shall not attempt to convert you Chinese speaking people to become English speaking.

Yes. I will not communicate with you if you continue speaking to me in that language.

Try and I'll be extremely nasty.

Recognition is wonderful

2011-08-09T10:34:00.002+08:00

In this entire life, I've never felt like I had a place in this world.
I was never felt, heard, seen nor needed.
I was never someone who would shine; be the outstanding one.
But today, I have just discovered that stupid dreams do lead somewhere. And the only person to make it come true is yourself.

2011-08-04T19:43:00.001+08:00

In this damn world nobody ever steps into your shoes. When I face a problem, nobody cares at all and yet I help them. Wtf haiz I'm sick of my life.

Given Up

2011-07-26T12:01:00.002+08:00

Seems like I'm not easily affected nowadays, people are all too crazy for me to handle. I give up -_- Just FANG MA GUO LAI. If you don't spare me, I won't spare you too. Let the drama begin.

Heartless

2011-07-23T20:42:00.005+08:00

Some people just don't know the meaning of gratitude do they?

This is something I cannot tolerate. Ungrateful people.

So these people pleaded for me to do something I do it wholeheartedly politely, without getting anything in return - for this case now I even get ignored. What the hell is this... an interest just became some sort of competition for me to see who is the best and all that crap. I thought I saw some fun in it but apparently those people do not... they are just using me to gain more views for their vids. Sick.

Devil

2011-07-22T10:31:00.003+08:00

There's really a devil in my house, everything related to it is ruining my life. Yes, IT. I need to pray more.

Black Theory

2011-07-22T01:13:00.004+08:00

"If you put up a video saying that you wanna be a singer, and that you sing a song, and if you're amazing; or not so amazing. I mean, whatever those people say, if you really wanna be a singer, then be a singer, just don't let them stop you."

-Rebecca Black from Behind The Scenes of 'My Moment'

You know what I've got to say about this?

This is complete and utter RUBBISH.

If you suck at singing - don't upload videos, don't embarrass your freaking self, and DON'T act like you are a great singer when you're obviously not.

DO SOMETHING. Like get lessons, improve your pitching, enter a contest. How does one expect to earn respect by showing off something or poor quality and inferiority?

Being a singer is not just about having a profession. It is a desire, passion, and Rebecca Black, if you simply think that having a few melodious words accentuate through your throat make you a singer, then think again and LISTEN to what people say. It is not simply being haughty and brushing off comments thinking that you can have a good sleep. Singing a song reaches out to the world, like this imaginary telephone which can communicate to everyone. If your singing fails to communicate, then think about how you can improve this communication, not giving bad advice and producing more teenage pop star wannabes like you -.-

And what the hell, it so happens that it's FRIDAY FRIDAY GOTTA GET DOWN ON FRIDAY. Guys, I'm not a hater of Rebecca Black, but she's far too immature to survive in this economy.

Happy Birthdays

2011-07-21T00:39:00.003+08:00

So... I realised saying Happy Birthday really means a lot to someone, and I mean just saying it. Presents or whatever materialistic stuff don't make up for it.

However, the more important part is that who remembers your birthday. Facebook is just a stupid delusion and people who blindly say happy birthday on 'walls' are really quite sad to me. Will these people even remember they said happy birthday? If they aren't aware of my presence why celebrate my existence?

Faces are gone

2011-07-20T17:08:00.003+08:00

Just a quick update on a lighter note!

Faces are gone?

YAYAYA. I've deleted all my pics on this blog so if you wanna find them they're no longer available kk? Mwahahaha, but seriously... Who knows that this place even exists anyway? I might just be talking to myself the whole time WHICH I don't really mind cause that's what I actually what to achieve . Well I'm not saying I wanna accomplish talking to myself and I'm not making any sense but HECK. *breathes*

JOBS.

Okay? JOBS. I'm going to talk about them now. I probably understand jobs are important for money...for I don't know, a sense of accomplishment? Or simply just something to make you feel like you are worth living for. Great ok? This all makes sense NOW... What if someone says that they wanna find a job because they are bored? ALRIGHT. This is the part that doesn't make sense to me. I mean. SERIOUSLY. Who the hell wants to work because of that!? I should make myself clearer.
HOW CAN PEOPLE HAVE NOTHING TO DO? I understand that some people's hobbies are to shop/eat...donate to charity...? OK these need money and therefore the person has to work. But those that stay at home. What the fuck. HOW DARE YA'LL COMPLAIN YA'LL BORED AND NEED TO WORK. I wouldn't mind living like that my whole life. Whole life as in of course life excluding the social life range (I'm not zi bi). Uni is starting soon and people still wanna work. Excuse me, Uni life is hectic don't ever think off days are for you to be BORED. Gosh.

Goodbye baby goodbye~

Confusing

2011-07-20T17:02:00.002+08:00

Omg today he's so nice haha, prolly in a good mood ^___^
Well it should always be like this!

G'luck mate

2011-07-20T10:48:00.002+08:00

K like, I'm going to have my driving lesson with that @!$)% instructor soon and I hope he doesn't PMS today.

Look man, discouragement leads to nowhere but encouragement is the root to all great things.

>.>

2011-07-19T21:39:00.001+08:00

Having cramps till I feel like dying but now I'm feeling so burdened and stressed up cause of some issues... I hate to owe people... Gah feeling real sick right now.

Sigh

2011-07-17T21:41:00.003+08:00

It's just another bad day...again.

Almost lost my temper to my driving instructor cause he so got me so fucked up like seriously. Not everyone is PERFECT and he expects me to be. I already tried my best plus he was just YAKING and YAKING and YAKING. How does he expect me to concentrate then? He gives instructions, I follow. He doesn't give, then I follow myself. Wtf and he complain. GRRR. I WANNA DIE.

Plus my relationship with my bro and sis in law is really bad right now, ever since last night. Was really not in the mood, and it's like we're not even family. Age gap? Yeah I feel this sea between us. I don't even know why he chose to make that decision... because of love? Omg love is not that blind! He's just... I'd rather not say. Anyway I'm such a screwed up person every way I see it.

Yeah yeah, everyone has talents. Blah blah blah. If the talents aren't put to good use they are useless. What am I doing with myself... =.=

What the

2011-07-16T23:52:00.003+08:00

Let's say there was a period of time I almost wanted to kill myself/get run over by a lorry/get struck by lighting. Whatever. At that moment I just wanted to die. I was like - Alright, this is it, I'm just sick of this bloody life and want to end it.

Then, somehow I didn't get the courage to.

Then finally the torture was all over. I was FREE. Free like a bird who've been trapped in that cage. I wanted so much to rejoice. I wanted to start a new life.

At this point of time, it's a happy ending, right?

WRONG.

Just when I'm thinking of that, this stupid thing comes and crash all my hopes down. What is this mediocre life I'm leading?

To add on top of that, everything is happening like a damn dog shit into that hole right down into the damned hole and nobody cares! URGH.

This awful day was sweet in the morning and suddenly everything turns bitter.

I'M STILL ALIVE PEOPLE. Oh gawd I must be a goddamn superwoman.

Smiles

2011-07-16T08:59:00.000+08:00

Great weather, great mood.

Nothing to care about today.

Perfect :)

Just hope nothing goes wrong later on.

...

2011-07-14T08:56:00.002+08:00

Why are you so easily worked up nowadays... Maybe I really didn't know you well enough to realise it last time.

When the clock ticks

2011-07-13T23:56:00.002+08:00

So my exam was over... It was my last day of lesson and I really feel kinda sad especially since it was something I enjoyed.

Feels like just awhile ago I was almost totally ignorant bout the language but now I can form sentences and even speak a bit.

Haha, time goes by in a flash when you're having fun. Cliche but true. Miss the days where I had my bunch of girls in school and we'd always be together...

But yeah, I'm a fan of changes - Instead of staying the same way forever and not experiencing anything new.

Exams

2011-07-13T15:56:00.004+08:00

Argh, it makes me really uptight and nervous every time there's an exam coming, the worst thing is that the paper is somewhere at the later part of the day...say, I'm having one at around 6pm today D:

So before 6pm it's like I can't concentrate and do anything anything right, not even study, or sleep. Fared badly in driving today and almost caused a collision. Urgh...I'm feeling sick. Hope the day's over soon.

Things I hate

2011-07-12T11:50:00.002+08:00

There are many things I hate actually, but I there are times when I really hate my sensitivity. Like for example, passing statements can also make me feel like the world has come crashing down and I need long term counseling just because of a silly remark someone made.

Sometimes I wish I wasn't so sensitive and emotional.

There are some people around you that may hurt your feelings and they themselves don't even know it. I simply cannot laugh it off or agree, and take it very hard. Then again, it's not like telling them will do any good. Isn't it even worse if that friend is your close friend...? Sometimes I even wonder what 'friends' even means. For me, I rank 'friends' as people very close to me, I don't just call anyone a friend because I know them for a day and shook their hand. It's an intimate term to me. But I guess not everyone thinks this way, move on, girl, move on. If a 'friend' fails to satisfy me, due to my experience, there is NOTHING I can do about it except accept it. Either that or forget about being friends.

Well, at least I have this computer screen to talk to -_- It's sad that I don't acknowledge how "lonerific" that sentence sounds.

Comeback

2011-07-12T11:40:00.002+08:00

Maybe it's too late to revive from where I left off, but often saying too late is never a good reason.

I'm not sure why I'm starting to blog again... maybe it's because like this blog name, there are some words which are not meant to be said, like those that will spark off conflict and hatred. I guess this is the only place I can really type what I feel.

The End Of The World

2009-11-27T10:08:00.001+08:00

One word: Breathtaking.

Piyo ^-^

2009-11-26T01:57:00.003+08:00

So I've learnt to forget things. Move on. Stinge on the hate.
Even if people don't get it, I guess I have no choice - I wouldn't want to pick up a fight for nothing, anyway.

Life moves on, eventually, though I may not like it as much, but there are some things worth liking after all.

People, I've seen through people. Some are the worst, none are the best, but many will make me want to keep on going.

2009-11-24T23:47:00.001+08:00

FML LA.

2009-11-24T18:47:00.003+08:00

Head's throbbing.

Tried to sleep but I got haunted by multiple nightmares...I don't wanna elaborate on this, it was quite horrible and now images are etched in my mind... Sigh, I feel like being stepped on.

Head's throbbing worse now.

And now there's even more bad news.

Just wanted to say,

2009-11-24T16:47:00.001+08:00

Tomarto, Tomaeto or Tomehto?

2009-11-18T19:10:00.003+08:00

Today was quite fun actually.
Yos and giant plushie were with me! Hence, breaks weren't that bad.

During lunch break, me and onni were playing neopets!! Those multiplayer games. It was DAMN FUN. Lame, but FUN. Onni, we should play more often kay? ;D (Bimbo said I was childish, bleh.)

So now horn section is officially crazeehhh. We gave everyone names.
Da Jie - EMO
Er Jie - BUNNY
Me - TOMATO (tell me how you guys pronounce that :P -pokes title of post- Personally, I pronounce it ToMEHto)
Si Mei - ~~Crazy potato pretty~~ BIMBO!
Xiao Mei - ANOREXIC

I yahooed tomato. And found this disguting thing OMG.

It's called a TOMATO FROG. =.= (and I purposely made the image smaller cause it looks freaking gross when it's enlarged...)

Yeah that's for today. Peace out folks.

Take Me Away

2009-11-17T18:27:00.003+08:00

My room is freaking messy damn it...and I'm lazy to clear the mess. Everything is all over the place, argh.

The school timetable is practically driving me insane... There was a 3 hour break today which was...ok acceptable. But tomorrow!? I have a 2 hour break and another 3 hour break. Omg what should I do!? Anyone know of good methods to kill 5 hours?. And seriously, I'm not gonna study for 5 hours I'll go mad.

I MISS BEEFU!! T_T damn freaking much.
Being alone really sucks...

Oh great, my toenail is on the verge on dropping out, all because of Will run. I hate running for life now.

Again...

Good luck retest people.

2009-11-16T01:46:00.000+08:00

School is already bad.
Now my friends aren't with me.
To add on top of that, SOMEBODY whom I don't wish to see hangs around me for those hours I'm in school.
Wtf.
FML. x10000000000000000000000

I hate this feeling. I hate it.

I pray...that all my friends can pass their retest and be with me next year.

P.S. Hope you guys like the new skin :D

More Than Words

2009-11-15T03:40:00.005+08:00

Gosh I can't get to sleep lol.

x.x

Hmm...

Guess what I've been doing?

I'll tell ya.

I've been staring at the webcam for the past few minutes and singing to myself like an idiot. HAHA. I've gone insane =D

I look forward to singing with Soks on Mon!

In Your Face...

2009-11-13T15:16:00.002+08:00

PW!!!!
WAHAHAHAHAHA.

It's finally over!! The torture!! I'm free...FREEEEEEEEEEEEe!!!!!!!!!!!!! *hysterical*

One side of the brain: Excuse me, you still have 8 essays to complete by monday.

Oh right... I forgot. Dammit. But at least it's better than pw :D
Btw, the hippo was given by Ms Yeo, so sweet right!?

Sun Ye~~ <3 <3 <3

Hot Issue

2009-11-10T10:06:00.006+08:00

OMG stayed over at HY's house. It was damn fun ^^ We were like dancing to Nobody and surprisingly it wasn't that bad HAHA. Like seriously...but the first time we did it, it was...ok I'll leave that up to your imagination. && NO I'M NOT GONNA POST THE VIDEO HERE.

Btw we had dinner at Eighteen Chefs. The students' meal is damn worth it! It consists of:

-Your choice of pasta
-Honey Ice Lemon Tea
-Ice cream (we had chocolate :P)

ADDICTED TO HOT ISSUE (song playing in meh blog)

&&&&&&&&

I want an iPod.

Damn it Demi's awesome.

2009-11-09T13:36:00.001+08:00

i hear what you're not saying,
it's driving me crazy.
it's like we stopped breathing in this room.
we're both the last to be leaving,
i know what you're thinking,
i wish you'd make your move.

it's
much too quiet in here.
i wanna disappear.
i'm hearing myself thinking too clear
it's too quiet in here,
make it all go away.
why can't we break the silence, finally.

it's like you know where i'm going,
you follow me home but,
i never invite you inside.
i see what you're not showing,
i've got you alone but,
the air is so still, it's weird.

it's much too quiet in here.
i wanna disappear,
i'm hearing myself thinking too clear.
it's too quiet in here,
make it all go away.
why can't we break the silence, finally.

don't stop, don't stop telling me goodnight
just promise you'll kiss me goodbye.
what's taking so long ?
don't tell me you're not gonna try,
the tensions building in my mind.
i wanna scream, and i know why.

it's much too quiet in here,
i wanna disappear.
i'm hearing myself thinking too clear
it's too quiet in here,
make it all go away.
why can't we break the silence, finally.
make it all go away,
it's too quiet in here.

2009-11-07T20:47:00.001+08:00

And I thought it was the end of PW but noooooooooooo.........
At least it's not group work though.

Gah. Cramps. I'm going to die.

2009-11-04T20:26:00.003+08:00

I've realised that when I put love on someone else, I start to forget the hate I have for another.

Today, especially, images kept flooding my mind...

And I miss them.

It's probably too selfish to want them back.

2009-11-02T18:23:00.001+08:00

ARGH WTF I HATE PW.
NO ACTUALLY I DON'T.
BUT BECAUSE OF YOU AND YOUR RETARDEDNESS, I HATE IT TO THE BLOODY CORE.

2009-10-30T16:53:00.002+08:00

PW sucks cause of you.

Chill, yo

2009-10-27T20:02:00.003+08:00

Hahahaha. I'm speechless.

These few days have been driving me practically insane and I felt like I was going to die sooner or later.

Everything~ everything is wrong.

Hahahah.

Omg.

I can just laugh at how pathetic I've made myself become.

But at least I'm fine for the time being.

Thank you everyone who encouraged me!!

2009-10-26T19:28:00.001+08:00

Why am I such a failure...

If it was in the past I would brush it off as a joke but now...I seem to take everything the hard way.

I'm so pissed off with myself.

2009-10-24T15:35:00.001+08:00

Omg this is a true inspiration..

Crap it is.

2009-10-23T01:58:00.005+08:00

Have you ever wondered or asked yourself, what's your purpose in life?
Cause if you have, I envy you.
Throughout these 17 years I asked it everyday, but there isn't an answer.
What am I working for?
Nothing.
Who do I work for?
Parents.
Why?
To make them proud.
And then?
...
Stumped.
So this life of mine. Is it even mine at all?
Why am I doing so many things for when it's not even making me happy...
Life sucks like shyt man.

...

And then there's this thing called happiness.
Yes.
I do face happiness at points in time.
So?
They are just illusions.
Happiness doesn't last.
At least for me, it only lasts for a split second.
Then what's the point, when I eventually go back to my crestfallen state again?

Goal?
No goal. Why should I have one?
To make my life meaningful? - quoted by everyone
My life is only meaningful when I work because of myself! Which apparently I'm not.

Then people will say.
Oh. Then you'll have a bad future, and leave behind no legacy...blah blah...in the future you'll suffer.
Please, I'm suffering now.
Kill me.
Oh nooo, I can't die.
It actually costs money and besides I'm still living for some people (in fact, I'm just sucking blood from them).

School.
Wtf.

Studying.
Speechless.

Life.
There isn't one.

Me.
A living dead.

Future?
Frankly, my goal is not to have one. Too bad...the society doesn't accept that.

I shall just pretend to love this world as always.

Siao

2009-10-20T22:24:00.003+08:00

Met emo gal and HY yesterday for DIM TAI FUNG (did I spell it correctly LOL). After which me and HY went for KBOX, sang until like siao =_= (but I bet those people beside us sang even crazier cause erm...yeah, wasn't quite pleasant) ANYWAY...When we were going home we suddenly saw a huge rat. HY was like screaming away.

We took a cab home after that as train services stopped.

TODAY @ SCHOOL.

Results? Meh...I don't know...

I'll keep praying!

2009-10-18T02:02:00.003+08:00

MISSES.......Camaraderie....

2009-10-17T12:42:00.003+08:00

Going crazy. Now I feel the heat burning up.

Tuesday...

Shucks.

It might be the end of my life, seriously.

2009-10-13T14:36:00.002+08:00

OMFG I almost got killed by a freaking van. =_= What are eyes for...

This week is multiple killing week. Where I get killed again and again with the checking of each paper.

Hell it is.

Sunburnt

2009-10-10T09:03:00.003+08:00

Hello guys!!

I was dead tired yesterday so didn't update haha.

Yesterday was fun at Yi Zhen's house! Went swimming and talked a whole load of crap. During swimming, we played games and the loser had to do a forfeit. xD In the end, only sexy and cow didn't have to forfeit!!

Wish we could go out like this more often.

Btw I thought I didn't get sunburnt but my shirt was covering the burnt part that's why I didn't see it -_-

Audi Virus

2009-10-08T13:48:00.006+08:00

YESSS!!!!!

I've finally gotten that friggin E1 logo after days of mugging!! xD Feel so accomplished. LOL.

Anyone up for Audition? :x

Watching this korean drama now:

Beethoven Virus

Kang Gun Woo is an orchestra conductor in his 40's. He is an elite workaholic conductor who has a very bad reputation. He is known as someone who will do absolutely anything in order to create the very best music. However, due to his self-righteous and stubborn personality he thinks that only his thoughts are correct which makes him unable to form good relationships with those around him. He meets Du Ru Mi, a violinist, and a trumpet player who has the same name as him, and together they form a love triangle.

It's a nice show, recommended by HY :D
Good for those who like shows with deep meaning and sophistication, and of course, music. If anyone's interested, you can check it out at mysoju.com.

Damn I edited this post so many times. A perfectionist is always one. Bleh.

AHHH SO EXCITED FOR TMR <3

2009-10-07T16:50:00.002+08:00

ZZZ WTH why do I keep having splitting headaches!! I'M GOING CRAZY! D:<
Only barely staring at the comp screen for 2 hours and I can't survive alr. Argh. I used to do 6 hours without a problem. Hate it!

I shall go to sleep.

Bye.

2009-10-06T20:30:00.000+08:00

Exams are over :D
Now I'll just hope and pray for the best...

TODAY WAS FUN!!! BEEFU came over to my house and we had a movie marathon ^^ Can't wait for Friday!

2009-10-05T15:16:00.001+08:00

Take care Yosephine...

2009-10-04T08:34:00.001+08:00

I dreamt of passing my promos!! >.<
But Ms Q looked angry, for no apparent reason.
It's a really weird dream, as usual.

2009-10-02T18:25:00.001+08:00

Bored to the max. Where is everyone? =____=

I've been at my comp the whole day zzz. Dying of headache.

Goodbye Hell

2009-10-01T11:24:00.004+08:00

First of all,

HAPPY CHILDRENS' DAY!

Yesterday my mom and I were having a weird conversation...

Mum: Hey tomorrow is childrens' day do you know that?
Me: Erm why does it matter?
Mum: You're CHILDREN what!
Me: No I'm not mummy, it's child.
Mum: Fine. You're child!
Me: No mummy...I'm A CHILD.
Mum: =_____= *hysterical laughing*
Me: *joins*

WOOOO PAPERS FINALLY OVAAAAA!! (left with paper 1 multiple choice of course)
BUT STILL...PAPER 2 GONE WHAHAHAHA.

Progress:
GP - Erm, 50% pass? I think.
Chinese - If fail I'll faint & die.
Econs - PLEASE PASS!! PLEASEEEEE! *crosses fingers*
Math - Hello U. Phail.
Chem - D or E?
Phy - Can pass :D

Okay that's it. For paper 1 I have to work super hard for chem to pull up my marks. D: Cause I missed quite a few marks.

Oh, the song on my blog is the one I told you to listen to, Yosephine. Nice right!?!? Bwahahah.

2009-09-29T12:38:00.002+08:00

Wah I feel a great relief now that Econs is over.

Which is apparently not good cause...I'll start my "holiday" mood T_T That is...stoningsleepingplayingeatingginnaing. Yup. Okay. I shall focus!!

I think.

Anyway I think Ms Lim's method really works LOL. I really hoped for the worst but in the end turned out not that bad.

And omg I found this screenshot in one of my folders!! It was I and HY's ingenious idea of an unbelievably gay character. Enjoy ^^

Neglected

2009-09-27T11:59:00.001+08:00

If these walls could talk, baby
What would they say?
They've been a witness to all of the pain
I gave you everything I had to give
Now I'm so empty cause you had your fill
You took the life from my face

The more you try to tell me that you changed
The more I feel neglected
If this is how you try to make it up to me
Then let's just end it
I don't like this feeling anymore
I don't like this feeling cause whenever I'm around you boy
I know that I won't be respected
Just neglected

All that I wanted was you by my side
But you walked in front of me all of the while
And all that I ever did was good enough
Well thank you baby cause you made me tough
Now I can go on my way
On my way

The more you try to tell me that you changed
The more I feel neglected
If this is how you try to make it up to me
Then let's just end it
I don't like this feeling anymore
I don't like this feeling cause whenever I'm around you boy
I know that I won't be respected
Just neglected

I never saw it coming
I should have kept on running
Instead I was there by your side believing all of your lies

How could you neglect me
Straight up disrespect me
How could you neglect my love
How could you neglect me
Straight up disrespect me
How could you neglect my love

The more you try to tell me that you changed
The more I feel neglected
If this is how you try to make it up to me
Then let's just end it
I don't like this feeling anymore
I don't like this feeling cause whenever I'm around you boy
I know that I won't be respected
Just neglected

How could you neglect me
straight up disrespect me
How could you neglect my love
How could you neglect me
straight up disrespect me
How could you neglect my love
How could you neglect me
straight up disrespect me
How could you neglect my love
How could you neglect me
straight up disrespect me
How could you neglect my love

2009-09-27T00:20:00.003+08:00

Something's making me feel uneasy...

Wish I could talk it out.

Wish HY was here. :(

Happy Birthday Mum <3

2009-09-26T22:52:00.004+08:00

Today I bought my contacts' solution and got a free S.H.E UMBRELLA. LOL. Okay...so it was true I only bought it cause of the umbrella :x But heck!

And my mum looks happy with it too, wahahah.

Happy birthday, God bless you.

2009-09-25T04:20:00.000+08:00

Omgzzzz. Look at the time!!!

I'm gonna sleep nights :x

2009-09-24T23:59:00.002+08:00

Today...

I almost choked on grass. -_- Thank God I survived.

I was doing everything but work the whole day. D: Darn...just 3 more days. What am I doing? And up till now I still don't have the motivation to study. Gah.

Lobsterfied

2009-09-21T19:07:00.002+08:00

Went to study with Yi Zhen today, it was quite successful ^-^

But...

We were sitting in the hot sun for around 30 minutes? And just now when I went to bathe...MY WHOLE SKIN WHICH WAS EXPOSED IN THE SUN BECAME RED. Now I have 3 tones =.=" Seriously, it's quite bad. And not as if I stayed in the sun for a long time or anything. It's not just my arms...even my thighs as well.

Now I just hope it turns back to its original colour.

I WILL MISS YOU HY!!

2009-09-21T00:31:00.004+08:00

OMO OMO...
HY IS LEAVING AT 10:10 AM TOMORROW.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! T_____T

COME BACK SOON HOR.

*HUGS AND KISSES*

Have a safe trip!

A Ferris Story

2009-09-19T21:29:00.006+08:00

Hi guys! I'm going to write a fictional short story. Enjoy ^^

Hearts Of Ferris
The following is by no means of copyright, story is original and is not subjected to plagiarism

Since young, I've loved the Ferris wheel; it was the most magnificent thing I have ever seen. Especially at night, where the lights would shine in all shades of colours and intensity, brightening up the entire area in a luminous and royal fashion. However, it seemed to me like it lit up the entire city, bringing it into a realm of illustrious fantasy.

Every time I looked at it, it was like bringing myself into a whole new world. Something so magical, so unreal, so...indescribable. It was like a journey, when it spins, spins, and spins. Never ending.

'Pierre...'

My heart thudded; I shook. And inevitably, I cried, yet again, for the fifth time this week...

He was so near, yet that distant. It was almost as if he was standing right next to me at that very moment, trying to reach out for my hand and clutch it tightly, wanting no more than that. My palm was starting to feel warmth, even though not physically. I could feel myself screaming, but silently, because I wanted it so badly. I could die...die from this suffocation.

It was just about a year ago. I was still the same me; nothing more, nothing less. The Ferris wheel had already become my second home, because of it's greatness, a day without looking at it was enough throw my mind into a whirl and trigger my temperament. My days were hectic; it was all work, and that was it. Having to see the Ferris wheel was certainly a blessing for me, it also meant catching my breath and breaking a leg after the long tiresome day.

But I remembered 14th February 2008.

Of course, that date had absolutely no meaning to me as I was an unromantic and boring person, I couldn't care less about those valentines' cutesy or whatever. I didn't have a date, well actually I did, it was the Ferris wheel. I don't know if that was considered a date, but at least I had the Ferris to accompany me throughout the lonesome night. That night, I didn't just stand there and admire its beauty. I wanted to ride on my precious, because it made me feel love which I never had, a heaven to retire in.

So I stepped in; and I transformed, literally.

There was him. His eyes were fantastic, emerald as the pure gem, creating a mystical aurora around him. I know, I was pervert at the instant. But those eyes...like a leech, could not escape mine. The position maintained for only a while, as he gestured for me to take a seat. I took a moment to place myself down.

The Ferris started to move.

As I continued my shameless gawking, his eyes shifted away awkwardly. I, too, was immensely embarrassed. Then there was silence. It was not until thirty seconds later where I tried to take a peek at his brilliance, coincidentally, he turned to face me as well. We were back to square one, like in a strange staring competition.

'Sorry,' both voices chorused, then laughs broke out.

He smiled. Smiled. So charmingly, it would melt any girl's brittle little heart. His eyes were already, AND now he, it was simply...never mind.

'You...like Ferris Wheels?' He asked, and I nodded without hesitation. 'Me too, the memories it can construct...are infinite.'

This was how everything started, but little did I know, it was soon coming to an end. He was with me the whole night on Valentines', it was my first time ever spending it with a complete stranger and what's more, someone I felt connected to.

After that night, I never saw him again.

Until a month later, when I received a call by someone who knew him, and the receiver arranged a meeting - at the Ferris. My heart leapt for joy. Did he want to meet me? But it was odd, why didn't he just tell me personally? But I didn't care, I just wanted to see him again.

I arrived at the scene, desperate by now. A tap on my shoulder was felt and the person passed me a letter. Confusion, but I opened it, and unfolded the contents carefully.

As I read, I wept. I wasn't going to see him again.

Everything came to an end. At least there were beautiful memories captured out of it. It doesn't matter how things turn out eventually, but what we made out of it before. Nothing is predestined, nothing is certain, and there's nothing you can do to stop it when it comes. We'll carry on, on this never ending journey to the heart. We'll love, and yearn; we'll be the Ferris.

Dearest Karen,
I'm not sure how to say this, but I have to. I thank you for that memorable night I would never forget. Being on the Ferris wheel with you was the most amazing ride I've ever had. Oh, did anyone tell you, you had beautiful eyes? At first I thought I was sick to yearn for those glittery jewels. I want to meet you again, and I hope I'll be able to see you again after you read this letter. That is, when I'm back after my trip from England. Pray that it doesn't crash! Or you'll have you wait longer. Haha. Just kidding. Miss you.

Love,
Pierre

--End--

2009-09-18T19:46:00.002+08:00

Somehow I'm always emo when left alone.

T___T

Help!

2009-09-17T20:59:00.002+08:00

Maybe it's time I start looking for something new to look forward to.

Things will change, eventually.

Hoping for something isn't gonna make it come to me.

Or maybe I expect too much.

Craziness

2009-09-16T22:01:00.004+08:00

Just look at the time right now!! What time is it already!? ARGHHH. You know, I was supposed to wake up at 7PM but in the end overslept till 9PM. I don't know why I feel so sleepy today. And the worst thing was I didn't even remember that I had to do econs homework. Luckily someone reminded me (well not explicitly)... if not I'll be dead tomorrow.

Really feel like dropping dead already!

*screams*

...

So today was crazy. Tomorrow would be even worse.

Yosephine's favourite phrase: I'm hungry!

2009-09-15T00:26:00.004+08:00

This song is bloody nice...

Via Purifico.

Omg... and now I can't get to sleep because I keep repeating it over and over...even when I'm not listening to it. It's like the notes are grasped in my mind, melody flowing through an infinite contours of brain cells, scripts embroided in a thousand colours, each tune plays reoccuringly like a guitar that strums with a perfect pitch and piano that tingles your spine softly, stirring even the most unticklish person.

No mortally words can describe this wholly perplexed feeling.

It simply brings me to accentuation of the highest heavens.

God bless the person who composed this sensational music.

2009-09-13T18:43:00.004+08:00

So I finally cleaned up my room!!

Now at least it looks like a room for humans to live in. I can finally breathe in fresh air. Yes, you can imagine how horrible it was before I cleaned it up. Papers were all over; you had to go through a jungle before you can reach the seat at the desk.

Well, I'm satisfied now. ^_^

Have good day everyone! Or evening rather. Rest well before school/work starts again tomorrow. For poly peeps, SHOOO! LOL no just kidding, chill out yeah? Enjoy yourselves.

imma turn fat

2009-09-13T13:05:00.005+08:00

I'm currently snacking on these: (while doing my econs DRQ ~~which is so bloody difficult and I can't concentrate~~):

Mmmm...even my lappie is hungry...

By the way...for those of you who don't know what this is...hum...yeahhh, no words needed here.

ANYWAY. These few days I've been so bored, *sigh*. And HY isn't even allowed on the comp. I'm just gonna rot my remaining weekends away.

Friends Are A Blessing

2009-09-10T20:11:00.004+08:00

I was pleasantly surprised to receive this card from HY today:

SO SWEET ^.^
Also, congrats to HY for doing well in her exams!!

Something made me feel like a complete idiot today... I really deserve less.

Also thank you YOSEPHINE for making me smile, as always, cause she's so ~~kampong~~ awesome. Today I was indeed feeling down because of the ridiculously stupid issue OMG I wish someone would slap me.

Okay well I better start my chem :)
Promospromospromospromospromospromospromos. IHATEYOU. LOL

What sort of a date is this anyway?

2009-09-10T00:07:00.004+08:00

Hello!!

I went on a 'dungeon date' with HY dearie yesterday :) By the way, for those of you who don't know, this is a MMORPG game called Luna. Cute huh?

P.S Hope you like the screeshots HY!!

Guess what...I've been stoning + slacking the whole day.
And I've started chemistry since 15 minutes ago but apparently my mind wandered off to here. :x

Good luck to me, seriously, good luck.

The Meaning Of Life

2009-09-08T17:26:00.003+08:00

If life were a story
We could be anything we want
If life was the sea
It would be infinite
If life were like the clouds
We would have no worries
If life was put into a box
We wouldn't know the world
If life were a piece of chocolate
It would be sweet
If life was a miracle
That miracle is you
Whoever you are
Because you're different
You're special in your own way.

Well I was bored, so I came up with this. But for now, life is pretty darn mundane, someone save me from boredom please.

2009-09-06T16:47:00.001+08:00

Sung Ha Jung - More Than Words AMAZING!

Simply a prodigy? Makes me wanna learn the guitar now :P

As you walk away...are you crazy!? I'll pull you back <3_<3

2009-09-06T12:25:00.004+08:00

Jervy Hou - As You Walk Away

Been music whoring the whole morning -.-
When I was supposed to do math. Ah damn. But he's too gorgeous...and ~~sexy~~ :x

Ok well chill out peeps don't study till your brain juices overflow.

2009-09-05T09:36:00.001+08:00

FUCK MY DAMN PRINTER.
CAN'T PRINT A DAMN THING RIGHT.

Obsessed With Obsessed

2009-09-04T22:41:00.007+08:00

It's finally FRIDAY.

Well actually, there's nothing to rejoice about.

Weekends aren't exactly the weekends I used to have anymore, and Mondays are even more dreaded.

Have to go back to school for a consultation tomorrow as well...

Anyway enough about such stuff. Had a swing with HY dearie today :) We ate some chicken thingy at Long John's (first time not eating fish there haha) So there was this lucky draw thing and a handphone accessory inside. HY opened hers and she didn't get anything. She told me to open mine and I told her "Aiya, you think it's so easy to win?" BUT I REALLY WON SOMETHING LOL.

TOTAL OWNAGE

HY drank a full cup of coke in like seconds and I was slowly sipping on my ice lemon tea...no wonder she became so full.

Frolick~!

The secret of frolick is that...ahem...only me and HY knows :x It's a dirty secret.

Listened to music till 9PM and we were dancing & singing at the staircase like some retards. Then we went home.

So as I was walking home I walked through this cockroach trail. Then suddenly this cockroach flew into MY FACE. OMGOMGOGMG WTFWTFWTF. I quickly ducked and looked as if I was rehearsing some monkey dance -.-
GAHHH!! I was freaking grossed out pleaseeeeeee!!

That's about my day.

Peace out.

This is the first post. HA, meh blog title pwns yours!!! >:D Jk LOL

2009-09-04T00:08:00.000+08:00

OKAY FIRSTLY,

I have no idea what made me wanna create this blog. Guess I'm just plain bored. Nah.
Actually I just need some freaking space to rant.

Or maybe I just love talking to myself. Hmmmmmm...

ANYWAY I have to be in school by 7AM tomorrow which is like what? 6 hours + away and I'm still typing nonsense here omg. Dear virtual blogging world, you've officially gained a new psychotic writer. Congratulations.